How do I do it?
This is my story in five sentences:
I spent a decade being bullied at school; not ‘teased’, bullied to suicidal levels- an experience which (despite trying to operate on my own ‘ugly’ nose) I survived but my best friend did not. Being discovered by a model scout changed my life and I became a professional model for over a decade. I had many life-changing experiences while having my picture taken for a living; I learned to travel the world solo, had my small-town mind opened, discovered urban exploring, bought my own home (which is a canal boat), had my tubes tied, gained a truckload of confidence and helped put a rapist in jail. When I began to leave the world of modelling and set up this blog, it was (and still is) a relief to simply share my real-life adventures with you. I became the living videogame character I always wanted to be, armed with a blog I was proud to show the world and hoped to make a living from…
The problem with trying an insane venture is that sometimes things just don’t work- all the things I imagined seem so far in the distance that I’ve felt stupid for thinking I could ever pull this off. It’s crazy; when I started this blog, I thought the hard part would be finding amazing places all over the world to explore and tell you about. It turns out that the hardest part is actually getting people to find this website and read about my adventures! Short of standing on a street corner screaming “READ ALL ABOUT IT” (which has actually occurred to me) I’ve been at a loss, and that has been really, really, really getting me down.
I’ve come to embrace and thrive in my position as “the odd one out”. However, it brings an unusual ‘blogger’ problem; it is easy for me to stand out in a sea of floppy-hatted flowing-skirted cocktail-holding Taj-Mahal-posing melon-eating tropical-sea-swimming travel bloggers, but finding people who want to see my kind of adventure has been very, very hard. I know you’re/they’re out there- I’m just looking for the way to reach them. I’m too ‘raw’ and gritty for sunkissed travel conferences, I’m not modified enough for the ‘alt’ blogging label (besides, I generally talk about adventure, not alt culture), I’m not scientific or athletic enough to be considered an ‘explorer’ and the last time I went to a summit for inspirational women, the lady on the desk pointedly looked me up and down and checked my name three times before allowing me to enter the room of stalls and stands representing entrepreneurs, ‘mummy bloggers’, full-time political activists and true academic world-changers… but nobody like me.
Right now, the fact is that while my instagram and youtube followings are growing by the hour, not enough people are reading this blog. As you may guess from my (very abridged) life story, I can write about a hell of a lot; strength, bullying, modelling, empowerment, fighting real-life monsters, feminism, solo travel, overcoming the odds, self-confidence, exploring the world- the list goes on, but for the past 1.5 years I’ve stuck to urbex and the end-of-days. Now, it’s time for a change.
Wastelanders, I’m still going to write about the apocalypse. Urbexers, I’m still going to show you amazing abandoned places around the globe. People who are following for the outfits I wear, there are still going to be loads of pictures of me.
So what’s going to change? I’m simply going to alter the way I write about things.
1) How do I do it?
Instead of just showing you something, I’m going to tell you how I got there: how I find locations, how to be a total badass, the best places to explore, how to fight monsters both physical and in your head, and how to have the best adventures of your life.
I won’t just tell you- I’ll show you on my YouTube channel.
After a few tweaks to my website, I want to start doing a monthly interview with somebody who inspires me. These could be fellow adventurers/travellers, people I have met, people I follow online- male, female, pink, brown, tattooed- from any country around. Anybody who has a story to tell.
3) Talk to me!
I value having so many people who support me so I’m considering a regularly scheduled chat in Instagram Live, where I broadcast from wherever in the world I am. You get to talk to me and I get to know some of you!
I’m considering selling calendars, posters and prints for those of you who like my postapocalyptic outfits and my work with end-of-days creative powerhouse “The Wasteland Warriors.”
I’ve actually got so much more mojo now that I’ve written this and my fingers are flying across the keyboard (which is a miracle in itself as my hands are still sore from sewing leather outfits!) I think that’s all I have to say for now, except that I hope you will still support me on this journey.
“How do I do it” was partly a rhetorical question as that’s my most-asked question, but it’s also a genuine question that I am calling out to the world: how do I do this? How do I get to where I want to be? Hopefully, soon, I’ll hear an answer.
Faith Roswell: “The Living Lara Croft” (and currently a bit nervous.)
“Bring me that horizon”.
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